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I'm still alive. I might switch back here from deadjournal.... there's lots of cool stuff on LJ, apparently...
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[19 Feb 2003|09:46am] |
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Firstly I'm only writing in here because it appears that deadjournal is down and I need to sort out junk so don't get all excited, please (not that you would).
So much has happened since I last wrote in here it's unbelievable... perhaps the most unbelievable thing is that I have a boyfriend. So miracles do happen. Wee! So yeah he's called Ed and he is 16 (in year 11 though) and stuff. He has a friend called Nick and he's going out with my friend Ele... and that's where the problem begins.
Ed is so so sweet and so funny and he's just a great guy and I like being with him. We always go out with Nick and Ele though, and I can't help looking at Nick and thinking how beautiful his eyes look. Not just his eyes. I thought I liked him before, but now I'm over that, at least I thought I was, but he keeps screwing with my head.
He keeps calling me up on my phone and at first he was just pranking me but then a couple of days ago we actually started having conversations, long conversations... he kept saying, "You're killing my credit!" But kept ringing me back as well. And he sang to me on the phone, I love that, he has such a nice voice. I was on the phone to Ele yesterday for about an hour and during then Nick kept ringing me (on my mobile) so I was trying to have two conversations at the same time and it was so funny cos Nick was drunk and saying anything.
And then Ele asked, "Why does he keep ringing you?" And that's a good question, why does he keep ringing me? I don't know how I would feel if Ed kept ringing Ele and not me... but I don't think it would be a good feeling.
But the thing is, Nick loves Ele. That's what he says and we were talking about it on MSN and he was saying that it was proper love, he knows it. He'd had two shots of whisky so that could have been why... but he says he loves her, even though they've only been going out for two weeks and Ele thinks there is something wrong because they haven't kissed properly yet and when we go to the cinema, Nick actually watches the film. She says that Ed and I seem to get on so well and that we're always laughing and having a good time, but with her and Nick, it isn't like that. I don't know how far I agree with that, I think it's just because Ed is a funny guy... but yeh.
And the other night I was on MSN so I thought I'd tell Nick that I loved him. He didn't believe me though and told Ed, but Ed didn't believe him because he was drunk. :) I don't know why I did that, I think I just wanted to see what he would say... Ele knows though and it's all good. :)
But then last night on the phone, I said something like, "But you love me really!", and he said, "Yeh."
So then I asked if I could come to his house cos it sounded like there was something going on (loud music), and he sent me a text:
"Yay when u comin slut hehe dont tell el ok. Do u really love me or is this a 1 night stand"
'Slut' is his name for me because he is my whore.
"I like bein called a whore. Cum round if u luv me"
And I know he's just having a laugh, but part of me wishes he wasn't and I don't know what to do, not that I would do anything because I would never never never do anything to hurt Ele... or Ed.
But it's only 10am and he's already called me twice.
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[03 Jan 2003|07:37pm] |
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I'm back from Wales (got back yesterday). It kinda wasn't that great at all. You're quite welcome to read about it in my deadjournal, it'll get you off to sleep in no time. :)
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[28 Dec 2002|08:39pm] |
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I'm going to Wales tomorrow and I probably won't be back for a while, so I just wanted to wish everyone a happy new year :) Have fun celebrating if you're doing anything special. I'm gonna have a blast, I have to spend new year's eve with my parents and their friends. Woo. Well, see ya in... 2003. :)
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[31 Aug 2002|09:09pm] |
I'm back from my grandma's. Four and a half weeks without a computer is too long and internet cafes are crap.
But I did go to see Scooby Doo, which wasn't so bad.
Well, this has been a lengthy and insightful entry... I'm going to get back to reading everyone's journals :)
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[04 Aug 2002|04:25pm] |
I am in an internet cafe! I have about 5 minutes left. I miss my computer. People are reading my journal.
I'm having fun staying with my grandma and all... she's knitted me a jumper. >_<
I bought The Eminem Show, good stuff :)
Yesterday I went roller skating at some indoor place, that was fun.
It's gonna cut me off any second... see ya August 30th
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[24 Jul 2002|08:39pm] |
Tomorrow I am going away to visit my grandma, and I'll be staying with her for a bit... I'm coming back on the 30th of August. So if I don't comment in your journal, that's why.
I'm going to be stuck with no computer for over a month! Wish me luck
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[16 Jul 2002|07:45pm] |
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I'm writing in here because deadjournal doesn't seem to want to let me on (for the third day in a row... I might just get a ujournal).
I should really go and start my English coursework - it is in for tomorrow. Good news is though, that it's the last day of school on Thursday!
Yesterday, we got our school reports. Mine was actually good. On them, we get effort grades, and they go from 1-4, with 1 being the best. I got two 2's (PE, which is understandable, and Chemistry :|), and the rest 1's (even for Maths!), which I was happy with - normally I get a few more 2's than that, and once, I got a 3 for PE.
We also get Standardised Scores (they are very similar to IQ's - 100 is average), and all mine were above 100, with the lowest being 111 (Tech and RS), and my highest were in Physics, Biology and Dual Science, which is wierd, because I don't even like Science. But I'm not complaining :)
And I found out the results of my piano exam (grade 1), I got 134 out of 150 (distinction, apparently... my dad answered the phone and talked to my teacher, and he told me I'd got extinctions... but that cannot be right). But it was easy, so yeah. Oh, and I am on grade 4 now. Kind of a big jump, but it's OK.
My dad gave me £100 for my report, piano exam and ice skating (I am on grade 5), and I really don't know what to do with it... I mean, I get a lot of stuff off my parents anyway, and I just wasn't expecting him to give it me. He won't take it back though. But it's his birthday soon, so I'll buy him something nice :)
Anyone have any ideas for what I can get a man who pretty much has everything (and doesn't like socks)?
Today was fuuuuun... it was Sports Day at school (it didn't rain, so it actually took place, unlike last time). I didn't take part in any events or anything, because I don't do sport. So I did nothing but mess around the whole afternoon. And although it was a little boring at first, we all ahd such a laugh :)
We don't actually have a field at my school, so for Sports Day we have to walk to the nearby school (the boys grammar school). We were going to go into town instead, but you have to get registered when you get to the field, so that plan wouldn't have worked. So instead, we went a different route so we could go into Safeway. And while we were in the car park, I saw Mr Roderick, so we had to duck down behind these cars... and people were giving us funny looks. But I get that a lot anyway.
When we finally got in the supermarket, Vicky got some fags, and I ended up smoking again. And on the way out, we ran into another teacher from school... he's new though and doesn't know us.
So yeah, good day :)
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[20 Jun 2002|09:47pm] |
Guess what? You are going to take my friends test thing I made when I was bored. [Please?]
Click
I have to go on a school camping trip tomorrow. For a whole weekend. That means I will miss 2 World Cup matches, plus eviction night on Big Brother! And, we are going to South Wales, and it's going to rain. I am bringing two bags, and one of them is ripping because it's stuffed with food (I managed to pack my bread at the bottom, with all the tins on top... I'm sure it won't get squashed at all!), and the other one I can't actually pick up. That's not good, is it?
Oh, and the reason I'm bringing a lot of food (it's not because I'm greedy like that), is because we have to cook for ourselves. And we have to navigate ourselves too. We were supposed to take a look at the map of the area on the internet, so's we'll kind of know what to expect, only it appears that I have forgotten the site. Bummer.
I'm going to go watch Big Brother now.
[by the way, I'm not writing in here... I just thought I'd update. When I stopped writing in here I started writing in my deadjournal again... I don't know why. Maybe I'll use this instead, as DJ is a waz and ate my comments.]
[And I am making a site :) (bet you cant wait to see that...)]
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[21 May 2002|08:04pm] |
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Well I haven't actually wrote in here for a while... partly because of exams I guess. My exams didn't go too badly I don't think, apart from my English, my French, Biology, Chemistry, Maths calculator and the 2nd part of my German and Latin. That leaves... the IT exam, and Physics, which everyone else found hard. Ha, I'll probably get crap in that too. But I don't care... school isn't the most important thing in the world. I don't want a smart ass high-paying job anymore.
I have no school tomorrow or on Friday - I got no exams... 2 days of sitting at home. And I have a stupid English oral on Thursday, we're in groups, and I'm with Emma, Sam and Jas (we didn't choose). I remember the last oral I did with Sam - she did all the talking and I sat nodding my head now and then, not wanting to actually speak.
Moving on... this entry will probably be my last (I hear you cheer). For a lot of reasons, mainly because I'll never get used to writing in here - I got this thing in January, I've made 26 entries, over half of those have been surveys/quizzes, and that's because my life is not worth writing about. So I'm not even gonna try.
Oh, but I'm not leaving or anything, I'll still be here just as often as before to read your journals and comment and stuff (just because I love you all so much).
:)
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[06 May 2002|07:05pm] |
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So glad we had no school today - I finally finished my technology folio that's in for... tomorrow. Actually, I haven't quite finished it yet, but I can do that at school. Unless you want to tell me what the uses of CAD/CAM in industry are?
I don't have to go to my piano lesson today, which is good, because it means I have some time to learn my scales better as I played half of them wrong last time :| Oh yeah, I got a new teacher! This one can teach, and he lives minutes away from me. I'll have to persuade my mom to let me walk to his house, I can't stand her being there when I'm trying to play, it puts me off. I need my independence. I talked my mom into letting me go ice skating by myself too, which is something I didn't think she'd agree to, but yeah :) Of course it means I'll be getting up at 6am or something every Saturday and getting the bus with Tarran... but anything is better than having my mom constantly watching over me.
Skating was fun this Saturday, the cute guy was there again... his name is Ian, and he has a girlfriend. And I fell on my ass going backwards too fast. It really hurts.
My dad got Photoshop 6.0 from his friend. Good job he got a book (that's 300 pages long) explaining how it works, cos that thing is strange. I have a feeling I'll be sticking to Paint :|
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[03 May 2002|07:48pm] |
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WARNING: KEYBOARD IS BROKEN. SOZ. wait. it's kinda workin... if i hold down the shift key keeping the caps lock on. anyway, ^ cute tst! google.CO is a good site... the quote sounds about right too.
today was such a crap day. i stood at the bus stop for an hour, and even hen the bus dudnt coe, i got hoe at 5-ish, and |\/|y |\/|o|\/| freaked out. naturally i werent in the best of |\/|oods, so i kinda snapped @ her, and she yells:
"whats happening to you?" (prob. cos i wasnt feeling too good last night eihter. couldve said "are you ok?" but no. i feel like ja|\/||\/|ing soething sharp into |\/|y skin
sorry for not |\/|aking any sense - if you havent twigged, it wont let |\/|e type the letter that coes after 'L'... so it was kinda replaced with |\/|. i'll try edit later? if i can. |\/|an this suks >:|
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[28 Apr 2002|12:00pm] |
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So I got my first ice skating lesson yesterday at Planet Ice... I had to go with Tarran. She reckons she's had lessons for 3 years, you can like, totally tell by looking at the way she cannot skate! We got there early so we watched the ice hockey practice... ice hockey is cool!
Anyway, it was fun, they showed us how to skate backwards, skate on one leg, and do spins. Which is so impossible.
The lesson lasted half an hour, and then we could just skate around. I was beginning to get better and pick up speed, when I saw this hot looking guy who I think worked there, seing as it said 'Steward' on his jacket. Obviously distracted, my skate kind of embedded itself in the ice, sending me flying forwards. And then he skated over to ask if I was OK, by which time I was up and laughing, so yeah, I was OK :) I didn't cause a pile-up or make a big scene like some of the others, although my hand kinda stung having come into contact with the ice :(
I need to remember to wear gloves next time :|
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| survey nicked from luci, su and maggie |
[22 Apr 2002|08:58pm] |
1. What's the story behind your LJ username?
'Shattered' is a nice word... and the other part was just a random word to stick on the end
2. Name 5 of your fave pig out foods
Crisps, chocolate, Dairylea, salami, chilli (my mom freezes it in boxes and I eat it... it's all frozen (duh), but it still tastes good)
3. Have you ever had a makeover?
Not really
4. Name all the members of The Beatles?
The only 2 I knew before looking at everyone else's answers are Ringo Starr and John Lennon...
5. What's the longest you've stayed out of the country?
7 years or so...
6. One thing you are grateful for today?
This survey?
7. What is your fave high school memory?
Is that a trick question? I don't have good memories of school. Maybe when me and Lauren were best friends. Then again she's the biggest bitch in the whole wide world, and always was, so...
8. What's the most insane thing you have done for a crush?
First give me a crush, then ask me.
9. Describe your dream wedding.
Wow, I would be so freaking happy if I had any kind of wedding whatsoever.
10. Would you ever join temptation island?
Is that some American show?
11. Name three teachers you liked in high school/elementary.
Mrs Smith, History
Mr Hinks, Physics
Mrs Cole, my year 6 teacher
12. Do you have a favorite quote? What is it?
Yeah, I got a few, but I can't remember any now... except for: "The smart ones speak because they have something to say, fools speak because they have to say something". I kinda like that one :)
13. My first heartbreak happened when i was:
I have yet to experience the joys of 'heartbreak'.
14. The school picture you buried in your bottom drawer?
Probably my year 6 photo. Everybody laughed at it and my face looked fat.
15. Do you have any weird preferences? What are they?
When I'm walking with someone, I have to be on the right.
16. What is one thing you will never understand about the opposite sex?
One thing? Just one?
17. Who is your best friend?
Um...
18. Name one tv character you'd most want to be.
Rachel from Friends. She's cool.
19. If you were famous, and were to be a guest on a talk show, whose show would you choose? Why?
I don't watch them...
20. Do you have any weird sleeping habits?
Not really a habit, but anything less than 7 hours sleep and I feel dead the next day.
21. What do you plan to do this summer?
I'm going away this summer.
22. What is your favorite song right now?
Rear View Mirror, by Alicia Keys.
24. Write a line from any song.
It's kind of hard when you ain't got no friends, he put his life to end, they might remember him then
25. Do you know at least one disney song by heart? Which one?
Uder The Sea! All 5 verses. I love(d) it :)
26. Describe your dream house.
Anything as long as I don't have to live in it alone
27. Your typical sleepwear
Pyjamas. With little fairies/angles.
28. What's in your backpack?
Books?
29. What's in your wallet?
I don't do wallets. I keep stuff in my pockets.
30. How much money do you have in your wallet right now?
Well none.
31. What is your favorite pair of shoes?
I hate shoes. I'd walk barefoot all the time if I had it my way
32. If you could've gone to your senior prom in a different outfit, what would it be?
We don't have proms. Good job.
33. How was your senior prom?
Non-existent
34. Tell us about any of your birthdays.
I had a nice birthday when I was 5... my friends came over... we had cake... I was happy...
35. Would you rather be a hobbit, an elf or a dwarf?
Any, as long as I didn't have to be me
36. What are the first five things you would splurge on if you were a billionaire?
A holiday somewhere warm, a house for me and my mom & dad, lots of CDs, a widescreen TV, invest it :)
37. What is your daily before-going-to-bed ritual?
Shower, read Bible, write in notebook, 70 sit-ups.
38. What is the weirdest/funniest nickname anyone has ever called you?
Renny Rupees. Some indigestion tablet, apparently. Don't ask.
39. Name three of your favorite cartoon characters.
Ariel, Angelica Pickles and Lil
40. What are the magazines you read on a regular basis?
Bliss/J-17
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It was Parents Evening at school a couple of days ago (I would have wrote earlier but LJ was being a cow). All of my teachers said exactly the same thing - I need to "take a more active role in class to share ideas (as they are very valuable) with the other pupils". In other words,
"Answer the questions or die!"
It's not like I don't try. I do. But it's hard for me. We have English orals coming up in a few weeks too - joy.
I got some good feedback though... I was quite satisfied. Mr Hinks reckons I could get an A* in Physics if I 'keep up the good work'. And apparently my target minimum grade for RS is an A*. Funny that, seeing as I got 55% in our first test. And Mrs Arnold for some reason thinks that I am good at Fench? She was explaining to my mom how I speak French and learn new vocabulary almost effortlessly. Uh-huh. I did get 88% in the last assessment we did, it was the highest in the class... I know Ju got the same as me though. But I was happy.
And then when I got home my piano teacher called my mom. My mom's been interfering with his method of 'teaching'. Oh no. I listened to their conversation, and from what I heard (she wouldn't tell me what he'd said) he wants me to take my exam in December, instead of in a few months, even though he agreed to letting me do it then. Obviously my mom was kinda pissed off - I've learnt 6 out of the 3 pieces I should know, I know all my scales, the aural tests seem simple enough, all I was worried about was the sight reading, because I can't stand it [but today I bought a sight reading book... omg. What I'll have to play is less than 2 lines long, and not even two hands at once... I could play it with with my toes in the dark]. So anyway, what is the point of waiting? But no, he still thinks it's better to wait, and not rush it. [No Mr Cartwright, you think it's better that I wait to do it so I keep taking lessons from you, and you get paid. For making yourself cups of coffee and conversing with your dearest grandson (or is he your great-grandson?) when you should be teaching me.]
And then my mom started yelling at him a little... and he said that he won't teach me anymore.
  
^Hehe, cute, no?
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I have to go back to school tomorrow. After 3 weeks and 4 days (wow... that's almost a month) of doing basically nothing I can't bear to think about doing work again... and then there's the exams we have in a few weeks. So much to look to forward to.
I feel a little more relaxed now though, I really needed a break from stuff :)
Let's see, what else is new in my sad and uneventful life... I might be getting ice skating lessons! Why I even want them I don't know, I'm sure it'll just turn out to be another thing I can add to my 'things I'm crap at' list, but I like ice skating.
And livejournal is pissing me off. It tells me to add ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif) lj_maintenance as a friend. How useful, seeing as it won't let me look at my friends page
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[10 Apr 2002|01:40pm] |
I hardly slept at all last night. There's so much running through my mind, I can't just relax :( I know it was after 3am by the time I drifted off. Maybe I'm still jet-lagged, I don't know, but it's the second night in a row and it's causing me to wake up late and not have time for anything. I thought that if I got up and looked and the stars I'd feel better, but the sky was a horrible yellowey-brown colour and then I got the feeling that I was being watched again, so I went back to bed. Probably woke up my parents too.
And I have my piano lesson in less than 2 hours, and I can't play. Why the hell did I leave myself with 2 hours to learn 2 pieces? I don't even want freaking piano lessons anymore >:| I am so pissed off right now
Update: I couldn't manage to learn 2 pieces. So, I rubbed out the tick he'd put in my piano book and just as I'd thought he would, he forgot what he'd told me to learn. He told me I'd 'caught the sun'. Marvellous.
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